Words as actions.

I'll be brief.

I revelated (heh, yeah I think I just made that word up) something, 9 days ago.  I was sitting in the bottom room of Larry Gibbs' house, among the many furnitures and in the quiet aftermath of hours of soaking music.  I had asked for him if it was okay for us to spend some time in quiet.  And so: quiet time, we spent.

...See I had come that night with something a bit off.  You know that "off" feeling I'm talking about.  It can be unforgiveness, an idol you've allowed in your life, or simply not abiding in God when he has wanted you to.

So I lay down and waited, with a heart - stance of

"PLEADING/crying out that you move/touch me oh God/I'm desperate to be in the midst of your presence/
I hunger for You!" 

I don't know how long it was that I had been in a waiting stance that night (up until the point of asking for quiet)...but probably 3 minutes into the quiet of that room, I heard God speak into my mind. "Go home fulfilled"

Now, this is the moment I want to focus on.  Because God had spoken the words saying what I should be, but AT THE SAME TIME, made me what I should be. I became fulfilled.  And thus I realized that inherent in God's speaking of promises/commands is the actual work of what the promise/command declares.

He does both at once!  The provision for the working out of what he has promised christians is GIVEN and set out in the moment that the promise is spoken.  (sidenote: I realize God is eternal and this description doesn't work well with theological thoughts of God/time/when but you'll have to give me grace for that :)

*Now that's multitasking!*

SO! If we are to run with this thought, this TRUTH about God, I can say that when God has promised me a future of speaking to the nations about his Gospel, He has made the way for that.  given me everything I need for that.  mental struggles of my ability, preparedness, choices, timing, etc need to be CEASED and silenced...
I am ready. You are ready.  We have been made ready for each "mission" and "leading" of God in our lives, by his very word of telling us to do it.

When God tells me that I need only speak what is in my heart during a message in front of 75 teenagers at a youth winter retreat in 14 days, He is saying that He has chosen me for that.  He has prepared me for that. And all the details (so-to-speak) have been seen to. completed. finished.
hmmmm.
something to think about.
or better yet, to agree upon, and walk in.



Okay, so I lied.  I wasn't quite "brief" hahaha, but I'm sure you're all the better because of it.

Oh, and I almost forgot.  The best part of the night was the 45 minutes that followed that revelation with joyful thanksgiving flowing from my heart.  It's so cool to me that God blesses us by making the act of blessing Him so euphoric, and satisfying to our souls.